everythings fucked up

fucked up
my lung is fucked up
my kedney is fucked up
my studies is fucked up
my life is fucked up
my friendship is fucked up
my relationship is fucked up
my work is fucked up
my key is fucked up
my computer is fucked up
my everything is fucked up
my plan is fucked up
last but not least
my love life is fucked up

it was great talking to cheukma though, at least our relationship is not fucked-up

its been a month

hows everything

lost my freakin keys man

another $100 gone
far out!

exam ended few days ago~

got the maths result back

screwed it so fucking bad

T^T


shall i start studying for maths?!

What's in everyone's mind?

trial exam time table is out

i have got 6 days of holiday after it


what will i be doing???

1 week ago

it has been exactly one week....
that was a week ago since we last........................

few days ago, i made some silly decision
i thought that would be good if we communicate...
but i was wrong
also..never felt regret at all

dropped by the stuffs and that's it
did some talking


things that weren't meant to be told....kept


i didnt know what else i could say under that kind of circumstance...
but anyway....

future will be brilliant...both of us

GOOD LUCK FOR MY freaking studies !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


take care anyway

love

finally i moved everything from waterloo to city
i have been doing all this thing for like..1 and half week
that was quite a busy weekend...and didnt really catch up someone that i wanted to
brother's back to here and he devoted to help out everything
without him i could be dead by now
stressesssss everywhereeee


things are getting untraceable

everything

studies
life...
love
life...

few hours ago i got to talk to someone i hadnt talked for so long

it's been 9 months since i last saw her, but not much differences shown on her pic

she advised me......

some real rational advises

i was stunted that such a young girl would say it


anyway, what she said was true, but i just dont know what to do now...
im pretty helpless

im deadly regret by now
........
over the previous week

i knew she was depressed
i knew she was busy
i knew she was......

something that kept her not to keep in touch with me

but what i did was the same thing
i did not really do some caring too

i realised that i was wrong on the saturday so i sent a long message to her
but that was a bit too late

it should have be done by few days more before
come on
i was out of my mind
i thought everything would be sailing smoothly

i didnt know bad thing would happen before

now.......i finally realised
i knew i made her do that decision

everything sounds stupid now
its too late for me to catch up......

please///anyone would give me chances to undo that???
i wanna show how much i care......


late night now.........can't get into bed.....

im depressed

please.....
i been so serious this time

i was just........somehow handle my relationship in a different way...wrong way///

please
give me a chance to undo it

i want to talk to you now
i want to hear your voice

now only i realised that was my bad

........................................................................................................

dedicate to my......once spouse

i knew sometimes things would just happen so sudden

i'm blaming no one now...

i thought we were meant to be

but somehow what we lacked of was time....and also the...chance to meet each other

had a few distance relationship

and summing up everything..........

it ain't as easy as you thought

no one could be blamed in this case

what i learnt was....becoming more mature

thanks for giving me a wonderful time

if there would be a chance for me to talk to you.....i would say ....i would definately cherish you like a far way more than before

take care the lovely one... love you....once